ff

i had a dream today
of flames and chill
of now being then
and issues gone still

i got some bills to pay
before the jackpot hits me
before the prize is reached
and i can cash thee

i've a confession to make
i didn't word a thing i meant
i never said for how to speak
of the engraved that can't be read

would you please be a darling
and reach for the remote
to get us forwarded

now

audio version

take it

it's yours

it's not bloody
i promise

it's still pumping
but softly

it won't kill me
the opposite

and it fits in your pocket

audio version

under new direction

if i were to spread my wings
somebody would try to clip them
some feathers could grow unevenly
my soaring could be unsteady

if i'll just get up and sing
they'll hear the imperfections
i'll know of my limitations
and let them nullify the essence

so i won't

if i could defend myself
i'd no longer sit so still
they'd quit all the understanding
and charge would replace their pity

if i could undust my faith
i'd sound way too self-assured
the world affronts self-assured
i'd have to prove myself right

so i can't

if i take some breath away
there are always the unimpressed
soever this "good, not best"
and the looks that pierce the fragile

and if i go back to writing
who knows what they'll think of me
god knows if you'll feel a thing
or if i can take the blow

so i don't


so i didn't

you've been my golden best friend
and now with post-demise at hand
i can't go to you for consolation
'cause we're off limits during this transition

this grief overwhelms me
it burns in my stomach
and i can't stop bumping into things

i thought we'd be simple together
i thought we'd be happy together
thought we'd be limitless together
i thought we'd be precious together
but i was sadly mistaken

you've been my soulmate and then some
i remembered you the moment i met you
with you i knew god's face was handsome
with you i saw fun and expansion

this loss is numbing me it pierces my chest
and i can't stop dropping everything

i thought we'd be sexy together
thought we'd be evolving together
i thought we'd have children together
i thought we'd be family together
but i was sadly mistaken

if i had a bill for all the philosophies i shared
if i had a penny for all the possibilities i presented
if i had a dime for every hand thrown up in the air
my wealth would render this no less severe

i thought we'd be genius together
i thought we'd be healing together
i thought we'd be growing together
thought we'd be adventurous together
but i was sadly mistaken

thought we'd be exploring together
thought we'd be inspired together
i thought we'd be flying together
thought we'd be on fire together
but i was sadly mistaken

Alanis - Simple Together

trinity

her and her
clear achievements
strong-rooted goals
and amazing roles

me and my
maze of doubts

her and my
unwanted presence
disturbing trail
and involuntary offensive

me and her
self-blindness

you and her
hungry love
nearly criminal beauty
and striking ways

you and my
fragile self

me and your
charming spirit
shameless taming
and keys to my every gate

you and her
innocence